I am the worst (but not really)

Ok, I don't mean the title.

I definitely didn't do well on my practice test. Well, actually I bombed it and when faced with your biggest fear (at the time) what do you do? I felt disappointed in myself and it turned into anger. Then while I was working out, I was able to process my feelings a bit. (Side note: working out is the best meditation method to me.) And then I found myself just tearing up and having a difficulty breathing because of the baby cry that was slowly working its way up. Nick, unaware of my emotions, walked around me gathering his stuff for evening surfing. I would dodge him every time he would lean in for a kiss or a hug with the excuse of "I am sweaty." And in the middle of V-sit bicycle, I finally cracked and silently cried a little bit. Nick was in the room at the time. And as he was about to take his board out of the apartment, I said "have fun and sorry I was mean to you earlier." And then I cried like a baby and covered Nick's eyes instead. UGH, what's wrong with me? I can be vulnerable with so many feelings but weakness or defeat is literally my worst feeling. I didn't want him to see me so defeated by a stupid practice test.

He's an angel though. He comforted me and said I can always be mean to him whenever I need to (duly noted) and that he loves me no matter what. 

Anyway, so with that... not so great work out day. But I did my best and still feel pretty good.

Also I slept with this foot peel mask thing on my feet and the top of my feet and ankles are peeling and it's not the most comfortable peeling (get it?) Anyway one of the curveballs COVID-19 threw is no access to nail salons. I am excited to see how my feet end up with the peel mask. Hopefully soft like baby bums.